Mood Swings Sure swing fast

My mood swing swings fast. Right now, I am thinking a lot in my head right now, all of them super negative thoughts.

From last saturday, my rollercoaster emotions went down on a two day hyperdrive. As usual, I was playing Ultimate Pickup games at sentosa. I had actually not wanted to go for it as my whole body was literally aching from the NAPFA Test yesterday, and not cooling down after that, but oh well, what could hurt? It shouldn't be as bad as the rantings I got in the morning. I just knew that I have to go back to Malaysia within the 100 day duration after my Godfather passed away.

Well, I was so damn tired, I just could not be my usual self. Nothing eventful happened there, except for the fact that I was REALLY not concentrating on the game. The short passes were so high, that even basketballer Yao Ming could not even catch it. What's even worse is the long passes: they go so high up, that they gradually silde out of the path, and into some babe-in-bikini's ankle who was froklicking along the seaside. After hitting someone for the second time (and at the achelles tendon too), my friends swore that if that gal and her group of friends were to come back at me seething with anger, they won't give a damn and just run away.

That was when I really lost the will to play the game. My gameplay got so bad that I really felt like resting at one corner for a while before departing off early for something late in the night.

Today marks one of the two official days left I get to train with the team. Just hope that I don't get fisted up for playing like shit. Like Stephen said, "You need to have faith in you. Believe in yourself."

I wonder how. I really to find faith in myself now. Maybe I'll just listen to Limp Bizkit.