AGM AWOL

Sing Ultys' AGM is on tomorrow....

I'm thinking about giving it a miss....

I was thinking how Andy Goh tasked me the job of finding the helpers for the Opens 05, and getting them to go for the AGM, and get some form of recognition.

Oh why didn't I get the contact numbers from them during those two days??? In the end, I just sorted out the mailing list that Steiner sent me, sent out an email asking for contacts and hoped that somehow, the email didn't end up as spam in someone's mailbox.

I think it did. Cos' there's no reply. At all..

I just think that I let Andy down in this...

There's no point in going to the AGM to get recognised for helping out at the Opens' 05 when the only person to get the credit is just me. Not the Regenites who helped out and lightened up the helper's mood there. Not Bruce, Calvin, Eline who willingly took care of shit and rubbish after everyone went off...

Helping out at the Singapore Opens was nothing big for me... I just wanted to watch the tournament, and at the same time, help out, because I know that the manpower issue is really bad, and come on, I have hands, and I'll be walking around, so why not?

But I think this wasn't the only reason why I'm going AGM AWOL.

It all started with a disc.

A small ordinary disc that Stephen bought, and played at the Sentosa Beach.

Anand got captivated by it, and so did Andre (i didn't know him then...). I got dragged in, and I got really hooked onto the Sport of Ultimate Frisbee.

Rules then were pretty much grey, but it was fun. I sort of became a fanatic...
I got most of the friends I know in Poly, near and far, my classmates, to give the game a try.

Most of the time, they did, and it was damn fun, playing with so many people, so carefree.

Then Weiliang got interested too. As did Gen, Nigel, Derek, Wenyao.

Weiliang thought about how it will be a good way to keep in contact as an SIT Club Alumni after we graduate, and such.

Then finally Stephen bought a true green 175g Frisbee from SG Ultimate, and how shiok it was: the hovering of the Frisbee was perfect, and all of us spent the nights chasing after it on the artificial grass of the NYP hockey pitch.

Once, we sat down to discuss about giving a name to our team... The lame me suggested Lord of the Discs... which sounded pretty stupid... Andre came up with "Disc Knights".. So DK was officially born.

Things got corrected... Rules got changed a bit... A point won meant that the scoring team gets to stay in the zone, and the other has to run to the other end and such....

Some bad things do happen though, and I feel most of it just started from me... There's this incident with Gen that made me wake up to my idea when I found out that words can actually hurt...

Then there's this fated jump that made me sprain my right knee, tearing my ACL along with it. I can still remember Jeff saying "great catch" even though I was grimacing in pain...

And there is this personality shock... There are people sometimes in Ultimate that clashes with me at most times (I call it the "ba1 zhi4 bu2 tong1" syndrome).

John was a great friendly guy, as was David and the others in 7-UP, when we took part in the Summer League '04. But I stayed back on the lines during the last few games, because of the ACL injury.

I sucked in the League Party too... apparently I got drunk and my heart was beating so fast, that eventually, when the people were announcing me for the Spirits Award, I was lying on the second floor sleeping like log, opening my eyes at times to see Andrew looking down at me with a bewildered look...

Then came the Opens 04. The ACL tear is still there, and I was there supporting DK. Even though I was there with them, I can't feel like my soul has a placing in the team anymore... there are so many people that I didn't know and interacted with.

Opens 05 arrives with an blink of an eye, and as I was helping out on the fields, I see DK playing on the field, with even more people I've never seen before.... I felt... more alienated than before.

The alienation still exists... even now.

I really love playing Ultimate Frisbee... but it's a while I've really this strong feeling, that I should just get on with my life...

I guess I'm just talking rubbish... probably nobody cares at all, and even if people do, they might just say, "Clarence, you are not thinking properly..." and such...

But this is what I really feel now...

And it might just be another reason why I'm going AGM AWOL....